I was initiated into Human Design by a Manifestor. Have I told you this story?
When Human Design found me when I was in the middle of a "who am I" and "what am I here for" search. You know the kind... the one where you are like "what shall I do" and "how do I make money?!" This was a regular occurrence but I remember this one was a big one with a lot of internal pressure to figure it out this time around. I didn't want to keep cycling back into this mode. This had to be the last time.
I was jumping around between the choices to study medicine or journalism. I was also thinking of all the businesses I could start. All the countries I could move to. I was wrecking my brain trying to figure out how I could earn money... and ideally in a way that would allow me to travel and work from anywhere.
By complete chance, at the same time, someone reached out to me on Instagram. It was for a completely different opportunity. She worked in travel and wanted me to join her team. She saw the travels that I had done over the past 5 years or so and thought this opportunity was right up my street. I was curious... and honestly, I thought it was a sign. A Devine sign because I had been 'manifesting' opportunities coming to me and this could have been it. It was so divinely felt to me that I would have followed through with it - regardless if I liked it or not - because I felt it was meant and that was what you should do - flow into it without question. No critical thinking at all. So I met with her for a call and we ended up staying in each other's spheres for the next few weeks.
Alongside exploring this opportunity with her, I was also working on a podcast. It was when podcasts weren't a completely oversaturated market. It was quite novel at the time. I thought it a good way to practice my journalistic skills and just begin interviewing people. It was going well, but, boy -- I ended up burning out badly. I was inviting people from all over the world to jump on for a 1-2 hour interview and then spending the whole day editing the interview. After a few weeks of this non-stop (literally like a dog with a bone), I found myself mentally exhausted and bed bound.
This was when a seemingly insignificant conversation happened - which actually changed the course of my life significantly over the following 12 months. (I had no idea what was about to happen).
The new girl from the travel opportunity asked me how I was doing and I said to her honestly - "I'm in a major burn out. I was trying to follow my creativity and curiosity but I went too hard." She then said to me... "Have you done your Human Design?" To which I replied... "No, and I'm not interested."
In honesty, I wasn't interested because I had spent 20 years previously following my mum's spiritual journey. Over the previous 20 years, I had explored almost every modality - spiritual or science-based - known to man (or woman). My mum had experienced a near death experience when I was 7. She died at the scene and was resuscitated. She went hard on finding the meaning of all of this. So - honestly, I didn't want to know another modality. I was done.
I was done because I had explored so many modalities yet still felt that I didn't know who I was or what I was here for - in the actual living of things. I was still burning out. Still cycling. Still finding it hard to "listen to my gut instinct" - to which I found out I shouldn't have been following anyway (story for another time!)
So I told this girl, "I'm sorry, I'm just not interested in whether I'm a red personality or a green personality. I don't care if my life number is a 1 or a 9. I don't care if I'm an ENTJ or INFP or what ever it is... I've done them and I'm exhausted by the lot of them."
She said, "This one is different. I think you should do it."
So I did.. I created my chart after her insistence and then I sent it to her... "I did it. Here it is. What does it mean?" To which she replied, "No idea." WAS SHE KIDDING?! She was so insistent - but she didn't know what any of it was about anyway?!
Cue a 6 month deep dive into what the hell was this. I did what most sane people do when they come to Human Design - I researched EVERYTHING. I lapped it all up. Give me all the information. And it was interesting. It has that pull because you read one thing and it resonates more deeply than anything else you've read before... and then so on and so on. It's like you instantly know there's something in this system. I felt this resonance in me... this can help me. How do I find the bit of this that changes everything for me?!
I wanted to get to the root of it. I wanted the core. So - aside from the self study and investigations - I had one reading and joined one workshop - the Living Your Design Workshop - and it changed everything.
I saw myself in a completely different light and the system validated things for me in such a way that could make lasting change. And it still has had that remarkable effect on me.
I don't speak with that girl anymore - not for any particular reason. She had no idea that her Manifestor insistence (she didn't know she was a Manifestor at the time she initiated me) would lead to me becoming a certified analyst, guiding thousands of people through the same cirriculum and working with a HUGE (probably the biggest if not one of the biggest) active human design groups there is - through luck (pretty much!)
If it wasn't for that girl, or the one reading, or that one Living Your Design Workshop, I would still be cycling in and out of burn outs. I'd still be in pursuit. I'd still be shy and anxiety laden - I'd have panic attacks frequently back before Human Design.
Maybe this helps you to understand why I am so incredibly passionate about creating the opportunity for other people to learn what I learnt to hopefully create as much of a positive shift in their personal life as it did for me.
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I run live Living Your Design Workshops throughout the year. A space for you to unravel and unspiral from the way you've been living life up until now. To see when the next one is, click here.
